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02 January 2012 @ 01:08 am

A very Happy New Year to all my friends. 2011 was a blast, and I've learnt so much from this really really short year. Hope the precious lessons learnt can help me become a better person in this coming year.

One of the things that I've yet to learn in the previous years, is to learn how to deal with people's opinions and views. I'm always very easily affected by how people view and think of me. Thus, I am unable to really be who I am in front of these people. I often have to put up a fake smile, a fake front just to make sure they all have a positive view of me. It gets kinda tiring. I'm pretty sure I've not make much progress in handling these situations. I like to be myself, I like to be the Darryl I am comfortable with, but I am only able to do so in front of the very few special people that I'm comfortable with.

I'd like to take 2012 to improve myself, so I can become a better person. I want to be someone whom my family and friends can count on. I want to be myself as much as possible, and to be happy every single day of 2012.

So thanks for 2011. Bring it on, 2012!

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05 December 2011 @ 08:10 pm

ugly.

That day was a mega big slap to my really small face. It came like IN MY FACE. Well I suppose its true that it really takes time to know someone inside out. Suchan Ugly, Disgusting and Horrible Sight!

Oh well, met up with my Seconday School friends and we had our usual HTHT, and and I'm really thankful to always have them to fall back on, rain or shine. Their constant reminder of being positive really really keeps me going.

Through tough times we really become stronger! HWA!

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25 November 2011 @ 08:19 pm

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I guess I've learnt and I now know that, in life, we cannot be too thick skin. None of your business, means none of your business, you're not involved means you're not involved, you're not part of it means you're not part of it. No point kneh kneh forcing your way into it. Life'l be better that way!

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12 September 2011 @ 08:50 pm

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So i stopped after reading one chapter.

Stopped playing Yang's guitar after like 15 minutes.

Stopped watching my drama after one episode.

Stopped playing dota after one game.

What is wrong with me? I feel so aimless, like there's no longer any direction that I should be heading towards. I'm just wandering, going and moving along wherever life takes me.

I guess some of you guys are right, i have totally ZERO talent.

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27 August 2011 @ 06:01 pm

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and my life is so full of drama. so full of ups and downs.

it always starts off with everything being out of place, everything all messed up. it always starts off with me being really unhappy.

then comes the part where everything starts to fall in place, me starting to be a little happier, a little more used to how things work.

and then, its about time all the good things end.

i guess thats why they all say, all good things come to an end. but why didnt all the good things come to me earlier? humph.

well, i suppose i should just be thankful for whatever good things that has happened to me so far.

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31 July 2011 @ 03:35 pm

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Well I guess sometimes its okay to be alone.

Reach into your bag and you have your Ipod, your book and your phone!

Reach out to the coffee table, and you have your TV Remote Control, you have your big bag of chips and a bottle of water.

I guess it only sets in when you look around and you realise there's nobody around you.

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27 July 2011 @ 09:06 pm

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Life is unfair. Never was, and never will.

Bye

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20 July 2011 @ 11:13 pm

:)

"I, for one, don't care how you look."

Thank you so much. Am very very thankful you're always there for me. I know even through the darkest times of my life, you'll stand right by me. Though I've only just seen you a few weeks back, but like what I'll always nag to you, "I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T SEE YOU FOR AGES".

Sometimes I realy wonder where this "though i've obviously just met you, but i feel like i haven't seen you for years" feeling comes from.

I have so much to tell. and i cannot wait.

Tonight I'll be dreaming of all the Crap We've been through since Fortissmmo! :B. I for one, don't care how chio you are cos in my eyes you're the chioest xiao mei ever!

Ripped a whole buncha Jayesslee's covers and videos into my trusty Ipoop! and "what faith can do"'s been on repeat mode since i don't know when.

I'll be waiting for my miracle to happen, my silent prayers to be answered.

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31 May 2011 @ 09:52 pm

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Tough times really do make one stronger! I mean, day one till now, I think i deserve at least a small pat on my boney back! But I don't know why these tough times keep coming, time and time again. I've been brought up to high places, making me think that hey, finally things are getting into place, things are finally going the way I kind of want it to be. And just nice, at times like this, I'll get beaten way down to rock bottom. I really don't know what awaits me already lurh, I'm tired of thinking about what's gonna happen tommorrow, I'm tired of thinking who's gonna be there to pull through these times with me, I'm tired of thinking what the eventual outcome will be, cos everyday, everything's changing, and changing, and changing. These Uncertainties are really starting to make me feel so unsecure about everything in life. I'm so tired, really.

But hey, I think I'm handling this kind of not bad, compared to how I'd erupt and self-stab in the past. But I'm still equally angsty as to why, life have to keep coming back at me time and time again, each time, harder n harder.

I don't like to be alone la. Ka Na Sai!

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29 May 2011 @ 11:19 pm

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I'm sure its something to do with not having enough confidence.

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